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va jay jay [Sunday Jul 29, 2007 6:51pm ] i am so excited i'm moving out of the centre and into a house this tuesday!!!! yesssssssssss. out of the shit hole and into a bigger shit hole that is a beautiful older house, it'll be great there will be more room, which makes me happy. I think i'm going to paint my room lime green, any suggestions? i wanted to get technical with what i painted and i had a lot of ideas, but then i remembered that my walls now are already covered in posters and that stuff, so you wouldn't even see the time i spend on it. so yeah... you probably don't care what color my walls look like BUT i am happy! anyone that wants to visit go right ahead we will have plenty of couches or pullout beds so DO ITTTTT!!!!!! and i saw the simpsons movie and that was great and i'm going to lollapoloza this weekend and im excited we're staying in a hostle and i can't wait to go i can't wait to see regina again, and daft punk, ben harper, modest mouse, yeah yeah yeahs, kings of leon, the black keys, spoon, g. love, !!!, polyphonic spree, tapes n' tapes, cold war kids. AHHHHHHHHHH i am so happy i can't stop smiling today. and i get to work more hours yezzzzer hope everyone is having a great summer

[Wednesday Apr 04, 2007 7:26pm ] Life was going great for me. I figured out business isn't the right thing for me and I decided to follow my heart and go with a job I'd actually enjoy doing. I decide to quit smoking ciggarettes for my health. Now my health is scaring me, I've seen doctors, went to the hospital now I have to see a specialist doctor It's funny I never really pray for anything but now i'm praying, praying everything is okay. But I am happy to have a few supportive friends that are there for me and my family by my side It's hard to think or even worry about my final exams, when I keep worrying about my body

[Wednesday Mar 07, 2007 1:19am ] i HATE being home, only because of my parents. Next time I come home i would much rather stay with someone else so I could actually see people that make me feel good about myself. My dad asked me what I exactly want to do with my Business Major and Art minor once i get out of college. i told him i wasn't exactly sure, but maybe i could work at an art gallery, or just any sort of business that has to do with art or something like that and as i was explaining to him what i wanted he laughed in my face and said well good luck with that, you know you probably wouldn't ever get a job doing that and you probably wouldn't get paid much. I blew up. He gives me NO confidence in what i'm doing with my life, he only thinks a well paid job is the only thing that you need to have a good life. I try to tell him I'd rather be happy than have loads of money. I get no where with my parents. They treat me like a kid. I get no respect. I hate bitching about my parents like I used to when I was living in my house i feel like such a little bitchhhhhhhh!P;jgrw;lsjg spring break can kiss my ass jury duty sucked. wasted 8 hours of my life today was filled with going to the doctors and only getting bad news and scheduling to go see more doctors i saw a few people over spring break but definately did not get to spend the time i wanted to spend with people tomorrow i'm getting the hell out of here the only good thing about coming home would be i went so sumos and got sushi today AND yesterday i found my pink converse that i thought were lost forever suck on a hairy nut bitchazzcunt

[Sunday Jan 07, 2007 3:29am ] And it hurts me to look into the mirror at myself. And it hurts even more to have to be with somebody else. And it's so hard to do and so easy to say. But sometimes - sometimes, you just have to walk away - walk away. With so many people to love in my life, why do I worry about one? But you put the happy in my ness, you put the good times into my fun.

[Monday Oct 23, 2006 4:29pm ] Where is Amanda Noll? if anybody has a clue and would like to tell me I would appreciate it. I just want to make sure she is okay

[Saturday Aug 19, 2006 5:26pm ] This year has been so eventful. Went away to school, learned how to live in a tiny room with a complete stranger, learned how to do my own laundry, learned how to make my own decisions. Lost some really good friendships, but built other really solid ones. There are many things that happened that i think i regret, but I'm not quite sure if I really regret it, because I love the way things are right now, and if those things didn't happen I might not be the way I am today. I dreaded this summer before it was even summer. I thought it would be horrible living with my parents again. After being here for 4 months it wasn't really that bad (even though I'd much rather live on my own). I got to spend time with friends I hadn't seen all year. I made some new friendships this summer. I wish I didn't have to leave these people. It was about two or three nights ago I realized what good friends I have that live in Rochester. I started packing last night and have been packing all day today, my walls are bare, it's pretty sad and doesn't feel like my room anymore. I can't wait to see all the people who i haven't seen all summer once i get back in kalamazoo. Hopefully the apartment is nice and I'm hoping for cool neighbors

Fidelity [Monday Jul 03, 2006 1:31am ] i never loved nobody fully always one foot on the ground and by protecting my heart truly i got lost in the sounds i hear in my mind all these voices i hear in my mind all these words i hear in my mind all this music and it breaks my heart and it breaks my heart and it breaks my heart it breaks my heart and suppose i never met you suppose we never fell in love suppose i never ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft suppose i never ever saw you suppose we never ever called suppose i kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall just to break my fall just to break my fall break my fall break my fall all my friends say that of course its gonna get better gonna get better better better better better better better better i never love nobody fully always one foot on the ground and by protecting by heart truly i got lost in the sounds i hear in my mind all these voices i hear in my mind all these words i hear in my mind all this music and it breaks my heart it breaks my heart breaks my heart breaks my heart -Regina Spektor

[Monday Jul 03, 2006 12:04am ] what would I liked to have been? everything you hate

[Saturday Jul 01, 2006 9:49pm ] "... is there a reason you called?" FUCK YOU!!!

[Saturday Jul 01, 2006 9:32pm ] Angie visited me for a couple days, it was great seeing her. We went shopping at iKea for cheap apartment stuff. It took us forever to walk through that huge store. We also went over to my cousin's house for the fireworks on Lake Ste Claire. My family is nuts. I'm torn between wanting to move into the apartment, and not wanting to move there at all. It's not going to be the same now that i don't know who the 4th person that we're going to have to live with is. So one of my closest friends i've made this year can't live with me now because of something she can't control. God! This pisses me off. As if she hasn't been shit on enough this year. It isn't fair. I feel like everyone is hard to get ahold of these days, it makes me sad. BUT on a better note i took of some days of work so i'm going to be hopefully driving around michigan/ohio? maybe. we'll see.

[Wednesday Jun 28, 2006 6:00pm ] [ music | dispatch:: the general ] I hate this!!!!!!! i used to think i had problems. but my problems are small in comparison to my friends problems. i hope things get better

[Monday Jun 26, 2006 5:41pm ] I hate seeing bad things happen to people who don't deserve it. I really want everything to fall back in place, how it used to be. i think i might go buy some CD's and/or movies.

"when all the fools in school go ooo-ooo" [Friday Jun 23, 2006 1:24am ] [ music | The Brunettes ] I love listening to my 24 saved messages that are all random voice mails i just decided to save. Listening to peoples voices just make me happy. Hearing "Kare-Dank it's Ang-Dank..." that always gets me laughing, or just "Hey cutie", or Dima telling me "Karen if you don't pick up your phone I'm going to kill myself." Or just the endless messages Jamie and Angie leave me, since we tend to play phone tag. Next week Angie and Jamie are coming to Rochester to visit me. I'm so excited. I don't really know how I'll entertain them, but I'm not too worried about that. My summer is a total of 114 days. 56 days have gone by. Summer is almost halfway done. I can't believe how fast it's passing by. I'm sad I missed 89x b-day bash because I wanted to see Say Anything. And i'm also VERY sad I missed out on Bonnaroo once again this year. I really wanted to go. Hopefully sometime someone will want to go with me. Pretty much all of July I don't work. I took off the 4th- the 17th in hope of going camping, But it might not happen now, so I might just spend my time driving around Michigan staying with people. Sometime in those two weeks I'll be visiting my old roomie in Ohio and go to Cedar Point. Then I'll be with Greg's Family going to a Wedding with them. Going to Allison's cottage. Camping in August with 5th Floor Moving into the apartment. i'm too excited

[Friday Jun 16, 2006 4:46pm ] [ music | The Format :: Tune Out ] I am so excited to sleep in tomorrow. NO work no work no work. it's suppose to be 93 degree's tomorrow too. YES Anyone wanna go to the beach? Go Fishing? Find a pool? Have a squirt gun fight/water balloon fight? I can't wait to go to the movies tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't wait to sleeppppppp in i can't waaaaaaaaait

[Thursday Jun 01, 2006 3:31am ] I give up.

Definition [Tuesday May 30, 2006 2:21am ] [ music | i was never young ::: of montreal ] premenstrual syndrome n. Abbr. PMS A varied group of physical and psychological symptoms, including abdominal bloating, breast tenderness, headache, fatigue, irritability, anxiety, and depression, that occur from 2 to 7 days before the onset of menstruation and cease shortly after menses begins. I apologize to all. After I discharge of the tissue debris from my uterus I'll be back to normal, i promise. pinky promise. I need to talk about my period less. I'm too open about it, and i feel like I find myself talking about it a lot. I'll try to cut back and be more lady-like.

[Wednesday May 24, 2006 2:55am ] you know how i said i needed a job? no i don't really need it right now. i'd rather go back to socializing, playing guitar, being at caribou, keeping my room tidy, listening to music, running & sleeping especially sleeping. Yeah it's only been 2 days into me working and I'm already bitching, but i was working everyday this week except thursday, but i got pressured into working on my one day off (since i'm a newbie) so now i'm working every day. it's like 40 something hours i think. the only thing i like is working with Sarah. Someone take me camping this summer, i'd enjoy that.

[Friday May 19, 2006 1:33pm ] "Just because he loves you too He would never take a bullet for you Don’t believe a word he says He would never cut his heart out for you"

[Tuesday May 16, 2006 3:50am ] [ music | Stars ] "I'm not sorry i met you i'm not sorry it's over i'm not sorry there's nothing to say" Usually I like a little rain, gives me an excuse to stay home and watch a good movie, but now I just wish it would be sunny so I could try to go for a run, or ride my bike or something.

[Sunday May 14, 2006 1:26pm ] [ music | RX Bandits :: Get ] I've always wanted lots of siblings. And the past year living on 5th floor Harrison, it felt like I had a huge family. I know this is all so cheesy. I miss being woken up by someone everyday, because if i'm not woken up I'll sleep the day away. I miss eating all meals of the day with people, I miss the cafe in general. The food wasn't good, but something about the cafe made me happy, I don't know, I know i'm a dork. I miss just being so close to so many people. Just walking 8 ft. to go over to hang out with a friend. I just can't wait to start visiting people now. I have to hit up Kalamazoo, Grand Rapids, Oscoda, and Whitehall. Camping????? I love this summer so far though. And it's kind of funny because I was dreading summer, thinking it was going to be SO boring. But actually it's been great, and I can see that when it's time for me to leave Rochester I'm going to be sad all over again. This is a pain in the ass. And it's weird because I feel like I don't even have a home. It's not a bad feeling but I just feel like I have two good homes, one here in Rochester Hills and one in Kalamazoo and I just can't seem to pick which one is mine. weird. Happy Mother's day! and I guess I'm going bowling tonight?

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